Nov 23

Loose Change: Kevin Sampsell & Jamie Mortara

 sampsell

EVERYONE WHO EVER OWNED A FISH WILL TELL YOU HOW IT LIVED SO MUCH LONGER THAN IT SHOULD HAVE

so Ian storms into Becki’s apartment declaring
there
is
no
ice
left
in all
of Brooklyn
not one cube
and like
this night
i am the kind of heat
that needs to be put out
to be
put down
to douse myself
in myself
you see
when i am Summer
it’ll just take
a little
water
but
when
you
are Summer
you can eat a whole day
in a single breath
over time
the food
starts to taste
like the refrigerator
and that August
i was beautiful
and you
were beautiful
and everything
was beautiful
and all of it
hurt
it really did
but Denial
is a river
i used to love
in North Carolina
and now
i am wading
in Oregon
in a state
that exploded
a whole whale with dynamite
just because they couldn’t figure out
how to get the corpse off the beach
do i remind you
of a sunken ship
at the bottom
of a lake
feeling safe
in the middle of nowhere
because there is nothing around
to hurt me
but also
feeling afraid
because
there is
nothing
around
to hurt me
are we supposed to pity
or envy Icarus
i cant remember
i’d wager you wouldn’t hold the sun against him
i bet you’d blame him
for not knowing how to swim
me? oh i’m done treading water myself
still got a little bit of ocean
left
in these legs
though
yeah
you’ll say
there are plenty of fish
in the sea
sure
but maybe
you are the sea
and maybe
too many fish
have already
drowned
in you

manoncliffwithwater

Poem: jamie mortara is a queer poet/publisher/performer/pumpkin based in Portland, Oregon. They operate voicemailpoems.org, run the indie chapbook press Impossible Wings, and host the Slamlandia poetry slam. their poems andother projects can be found here: jamiemortara.com

Art: Kevin Sampsell is a collage artist, writer, and publisher in Portland, Oregon. He needs to drink more water. Find him at kevinsampsell.com and kevinsampsellcollages.tumblr.com.

About The Author

Tyler Barton is co-founder of FEAR NO LIT, a fiction editor for Blue Earth Review, an intern for Sundress Publications, a radio host for Weekly Reader, and a blogger for The Rumpus. His fiction has appeared in Monkeybicycle, NANO Fiction, Midwestern Gothic, Little Fiction, and elsewhere. Find his work at tsbarton.com. Find his jokes at @goftyler.